all i want is
all i felt
come september
there was nothing left
theres no music
theres no band
i ran furthest
from my helping hands
all i want is
all i had
by late december
i had concrete plans
did you notice
that i had built
nothing like this
and nothing else
all i want is
all i knew
by the summer
id begin anew
i saw your versions
splayed out on the floor
i saw nothing
that i could before
as the days turned
to longer nights
darkness unearthed
by a blinding light
i felt the snarling
from behind the door
the sun is rising
but for how much more?
a nightmare descending
who are you defending
a bloated pus filled fascist mess
your silence is indifference
all the time is blending
it feels the world is ending
im drowning in the mess ive made
i cannot tell how far ive strayed
dont tell me i am done
this isnt my swan song
all this work and all this pain
has killed my sense of right and wrong
tell me i am strong
please tell me i belong
take me to the places
that i knew when i was young
sail me to the island
that i knew when i was young
show me all the colors
that i knew when i was young
(a nightmare descending
who are you defending)
as time passes
i am nursed to health
some years later
i am someone else
staring blankly
at the summer sky
i remembered
how it felt to die
all i want is
all i was
lo que quiero
es un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
un gran silencio
credits
from Hyperreality - EP,
released March 27, 2020
"Silencio" contains a sample from "Last Date" by Gil Trythall.